Things I’m not today:

Funny.

MAN, I wanted to be funny today. Even with my desire to write what God directs each day, I still have in mind a rhythm to my posts, and too many serious ones in a row kinda bug me.

Well-rested.

I have GOT to get more sleep. But I have “don’t want to miss anything” disease, which makes me want to stay up late with everyone – including people in different time zones. This is obviously a problem.

Relaxed.

My shoulder muscles are so tense lately. Lots of possible causes, including lack of sleep above. Also: I carry my worry in my shoulders. So something must be on my mind.

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Which brings me to the things that I AM today:

Puzzled.

Charlie and I just had a surprising conversation revolving around this passage:

Psalm 10:16-18

16 The LORD is King for ever and ever;
the nations will perish from his land.

17 You hear, O LORD, the desire of the afflicted;
you encourage them, and you listen to their cry,

18 defending the fatherless and the oppressed,
in order that man, who is of the earth, may terrify no more.

Along with a few other recent events, it points us in a direction that we agreed with God to take a long time ago, if and when he made the call. But now that he may be making the call, a LOT of new questions are coming up.

Most of them along the lines of, “Are you CRAZY?”

Thus, puzzled.

Pondering.

In the midst of my to-do list filled with blog posting and errands and email and giftwrapping, I find myself fixated on this one topic. Since I normally have a short attention span (Hey, when did YOU get here?), the fact that this won’t fade probably means I should just stay with it.

Prayerful.

A conscious decision, because it’s more natural to stay with “puzzled and pondering.” But unless I want to chase this thing in circles, I need to bring it before God.

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How d’ya like me NOW?

Sorry I’m not more entertaining.

But I do know that it would be wrong of me to step away from something I think God wants me to focus on.

Plus, I think I’m supposed to share it with you, my community of readers.

So I can ask for your prayer for wisdom and direction. And maybe because my struggle is supposed to resonate with you.

I know this is really vague, but until I get more clarity, I don’t think it’s time to share more details in this forum. I promise that if and when we DO get clarity, y’all will be among the first to know.

Thank you for being my friends!